Why I’m never depending on another human being ever again

My friend once told me that I’m the only person I’m guaranteed to spend the rest of my life with so I have to do what makes me happy and do what I approved of. It would’ve been good advice if I wasn’t depressed, but I was that day and I just remember thinking “Other people are the only reason I’m here, so if I play by that rule, I’d be dead.” And just thought that was the most bullshit thing I had ever heard so I ignored it.

Since then, I have found myself in a circumstance Continue reading

How to help a friend with depression

This is a paper I wrote for an assignment for school. I thought I’d share it with you guys.

I was diagnosed with depression about five years ago. I take care of myself, take medication, see a counsellor weekly and set short-term and long-term goals for myself. With this, I am able to stay in control of my depression.

However, my depression can still take a turn for the worse. I have periods where Continue reading

24 Hour Sobriety Break

I had been sober since December. I had been sober for 190 days. For the past few weeks, I had been having a lot of triggers; friends drinking, stress from school, and the fact that it is common for writers to drink. My birthday was Saturday. I made the well-thought-out decision to put my sobriety on pause and drink for the day. I knew there were risks, and that’s why I talked to my counsellor the day before and told my friend to watch me and not let me go overboard.

When I went into the liquor store Friday afternoon, I had a mini anxiety attack. My vision Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Exposure

We naturally want to avoid the things or situations that make us anxious and/or uncomfortable. However, “the big problem with avoidance is that it keeps anxiety alive and well” (Roberts, Sylvia, & Reilly-Harrington, 2014).

I never avoid things/situations that make me anxious because I know if I do, I will sink Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Rethinking the Usefulness of Worry

Worry is a big factor of Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), which is what I have. We worry about everything. School, sickness, time, friends, to name a few. We constantly are thinking, about everything. I honestly don’t know how we sleep at night.

“There are two general types of worries:

  1. Worries about current problems (for example, ‘what if I don’t have enough money to pay the bills?’, ‘what if I don’t finish my report on time?’, ‘what if my argument with my friend means we never speak again?’)
  2. Worries about hypothetical situations (for example, ‘what if the flight I’m taking next month crashes?’; ‘what if I get a serious disease when I’m older?’)”
    (Anxiety BC, n.d.)

Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT)

What is it?

Cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) is used as a technique to help with many mental illnesses. It can be done with a specialist or on your own. “Cognitive behavioral therapy helps you become aware of inaccurate or negative thinking, so you can view challenging situations more clearly and respond to them in a more effective way.” It can help you cope with specific thoughts or challenges (Mayo Clinic Staff, 2013a).

Our thoughts, feelings, and behaviours are closely related to Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Medication

I used to hate putting stuff in my body. I used to have anxiety taking anxiety medication. When I was in grade 11, I went on an daily antidepressant/anxiety medication. I hated it. I would go on and off it. Forget to take it for days or even weeks. I hated taking it daily. It was just horrible. I used to be 100% against medication. That was just me. I can’t really explain it.

So if you don’t want to go on daily anxiety medication, me, out Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Exercise

I started exercising a few weeks ago and it’s been one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I feel so good physically AND emotionally. It really helps with my anxiety and stress, as well as frustration. I hit the gym whenever I can. There has been a few times these past few weeks where I went because I was struggling with some anxiety/frustration problem. I just thought “screw this. I’m going to the gym.”

It is widely believed that it actually does help us emotionally. I never believed that until I tried it. One day, I just decided I wanted to start exercising to see if it’s true. And it is! There’s something about putting in my earphones and just going at it. I have about a hour long workout playlist and I don’t stop til the music stops. Btw, Miley Cyrus and Demi Lovato are really good workout music.

It actually helps and I strongly recommend it. I’m getting stronger physically and emotionally. Also, It’s a good way to let off some steam. AND It also makes me feel good about myself. I love breaking a sweat. It means I’m doing something right.