Anxiety Technique: Exercise

I started exercising a few weeks ago and it’s been one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I feel so good physically AND emotionally. It really helps with my anxiety and stress, as well as frustration. I hit the gym whenever I can. There has been a few times these past few weeks where I went because I was struggling with some anxiety/frustration problem. I just thought “screw this. I’m going to the gym.”

It is widely believed that it actually does help us emotionally. I never believed that until I tried it. One day, I just decided I wanted to start exercising to see if it’s true. And it is! There’s something about putting in my earphones and just going at it. I have about a hour long workout playlist and I don’t stop til the music stops. Btw, Miley Cyrus and Demi Lovato are really good workout music.

It actually helps and I strongly recommend it. I’m getting stronger physically and emotionally. Also, It’s a good way to let off some steam. AND It also makes me feel good about myself. I love breaking a sweat. It means I’m doing something right.

“Just because you’re clean, don’t mean you don’t miss it.” – Taylor Swift

I wrote a post back in late October about staying sober. It wasn’t that I had an addiction, in fact, I was far from one. I rarely drank. Maybe once a week or two weeks. But when I did, I drank to get drunk, and when I was drunk, I would have a big breakdown and I couldn’t control my emotions for nothing. So I decided to actively stay sober.

I did have a drink a few times between November and December. But today, Continue reading

Pain demands to be felt

I was watching “Fault in our Stars” the other night and this quote really stood out to me. It wasn’t the first time I’ve seen this movie but for some reason it hit me more that night. I truly believe we have to feel the pain of something in order to be able to move on. Pain exists for a reason. Everything does. We should react to bad experiences. Whether it’s crying, screaming, talking to someone about it, or just simply eating chocolate. I find the longer I hold it in and the longer I convince myself and everyone around me that I’m not hurting, the longer it takes for me to get over a situation.

Lying to ourselves

As impossible and ridiculous as this may sound, it happens to the most of us. I’ve lied and convinced myself Continue reading

More abled than disabled

So I have had a few people ask me to blog post about my disability. What is it? Was I born with it? How does it affect me? What can I do and what can’t I do? Does it bother me? I really do not mind getting ask these questions. I love educating people on it. I would rather them ask than not ask. It’s common that people make false assumptions, so I am very open and honest to try and avoid that.

When I was two years old, I was diagnosed with Cancer. I went through chemotherapy and Continue reading

Demi Lovato

If you know Demi Lovato, unless you’re a Lovatic, you probably only know her as a singer and actress. She is amazingly talented. She has an amazing voice (she sings me to sleep at night haha). She’s amazing live. Her vocals, dance moves and stage presence are incredible. You wouldn’t be disappointed. But there’s a part of Demi that not everyone knows about. Behind all that talent is an amazing person.


Demi has been through a lot. I’m not going to go into much detail because it’s not my Continue reading

2015 Is Finally Here!

2015 is finally here. 2014 was so long and draining. I think it’s safe to say it’s been one of the shittiest years ever, with a few exceptional moments.

photo (1)*This page is from Demi’s book. Every page has a date, a quote, a write up demi wrote and a goal made up by Demi.

I think it’s important to take a look back at the good times and achievements, no matter if Continue reading

Don’t do it alone.

I’ve been going through a rough period for quite some time now. I’ve been feeling alone. I have lost some support systems over the years due to lack of communication, distance, busy lives etc. But that’s normal. Things happen. Totally understandable. So I needed to find someone else. I thought I had no one but I looked closer and found someone. I reached out to her. Now she’s helping me. She’s helping me get help. I felt a relief. A relief knowing I wasn’t in this alone and that I had help. I finally had help after my long search.

If you are struggling, please ask for help. Please reach out. Please don’t go through it alone. Sometimes Continue reading

Fighting Battles

Someone was talking to me about some of the battles he’s gone through. He said something that stuck with me. He said “It’s about making it through your battles until the day you die.”

I was proud of him.

I’m proud of everyone who has to fight a battle everyday. It’s not easy. It never is. And I may Continue reading