Why I’m never depending on another human being ever again

My friend once told me that I’m the only person I’m guaranteed to spend the rest of my life with so I have to do what makes me happy and do what I approved of. It would’ve been good advice if I wasn’t depressed, but I was that day and I just remember thinking “Other people are the only reason I’m here, so if I play by that rule, I’d be dead.” And just thought that was the most bullshit thing I had ever heard so I ignored it.

Since then, I have found myself in a circumstance Continue reading

How to help a friend with depression

This is a paper I wrote for an assignment for school. I thought I’d share it with you guys.

I was diagnosed with depression about five years ago. I take care of myself, take medication, see a counsellor weekly and set short-term and long-term goals for myself. With this, I am able to stay in control of my depression.

However, my depression can still take a turn for the worse. I have periods where Continue reading

Pride week!

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I realized I was bisexual a year ago, so I was 19. I felt like a torn and confused 10 year old, grabbing on to any help I could get. I felt like I had taken a steps backwards from figuring out my life. I felt like I was a whole different person and that I needed to adjust my life because of it. I had no idea what this meant for me, or what to do. I’m still not 100% comfortable because it’s still new to me, but I’m getting there. Thankfully, I had, and still have lots of support from friends and counselors.

This past week was pride week where I live. I feel like this past week has helped me Continue reading

People change


In my one of my last few blog posts, I answered the question “what is my biggest fear?” I wrote about how I have a fear of losing friends, or someone changing on me. It has happened quite a few times. People change and distance themselves from me unexpectedly, whenever they please. I’m sure this happens to the most of us. Someone can change their personality and leave you hanging, or you leave them because they turned into someone else; someone that you can’t/don’t want to be friends with.

They don’t realize how much it affects the people they’re close with. It’s a loss Continue reading

“Just because you’re clean, don’t mean you don’t miss it.” – Taylor Swift

I wrote a post back in late October about staying sober. It wasn’t that I had an addiction, in fact, I was far from one. I rarely drank. Maybe once a week or two weeks. But when I did, I drank to get drunk, and when I was drunk, I would have a big breakdown and I couldn’t control my emotions for nothing. So I decided to actively stay sober.

I did have a drink a few times between November and December. But today, Continue reading

Postpartum Depression

Having a baby is supposed to be an amazing experience, with a few tough times here and there.  Unfortunately, many new moms suffer with postpartum depression, or otherwise known as “baby blues”. Postpartum depression affects 8-12% of mothers. Postpartum depression is defined as “depression suffered by a mother following childbirth, typically arising from the combination of hormonal changes, psychological adjustment to motherhood, and fatigue.” Postpartum depression can get so bad to the point where the mother does not want her child, or even worse Continue reading

One Word Challenge: Regret

I don’t regret much. I believe in the saying “Everything happens for a reason.” There’s a reason behind every stupid mistake. There’s a reason why something didn’t work out. There’s a reason. Whether the reason is just to teach a lesson or faith preventing a bad outcome. However, there is just one thing I regret. It happened when I was in high school.

In high school, I got my first crush. It was a quite confusing thing for me. I was Continue reading

One Word Challenge: Guilty

10982207_794405137262870_7253024228951136625_nOne of the reasons I live a somewhat balanced, happy life is because I am selfish when I need to be. What I mean by that is, I never feel guilty when I need to do something for me or my life. Sometimes people feel guilty when doing something that may cause an inch of annoyance, frustration, or sadness in someone else. It’s great if you want to make everyone happy and not cause any problems for them, but what about you?

I do care for others. I’d do anything for my friends. But there should be a line between Continue reading