Why I’m never depending on another human being ever again

My friend once told me that I’m the only person I’m guaranteed to spend the rest of my life with so I have to do what makes me happy and do what I approved of. It would’ve been good advice if I wasn’t depressed, but I was that day and I just remember thinking “Other people are the only reason I’m here, so if I play by that rule, I’d be dead.” And just thought that was the most bullshit thing I had ever heard so I ignored it.

Since then, I have found myself in a circumstance Continue reading

People change

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In my one of my last few blog posts, I answered the question “what is my biggest fear?” I wrote about how I have a fear of losing friends, or someone changing on me. It has happened quite a few times. People change and distance themselves from me unexpectedly, whenever they please. I’m sure this happens to the most of us. Someone can change their personality and leave you hanging, or you leave them because they turned into someone else; someone that you can’t/don’t want to be friends with.

They don’t realize how much it affects the people they’re close with. It’s a loss Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT)

What is it?

Cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) is used as a technique to help with many mental illnesses. It can be done with a specialist or on your own. “Cognitive behavioral therapy helps you become aware of inaccurate or negative thinking, so you can view challenging situations more clearly and respond to them in a more effective way.” It can help you cope with specific thoughts or challenges (Mayo Clinic Staff, 2013a).

Our thoughts, feelings, and behaviours are closely related to Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Medication

I used to hate putting stuff in my body. I used to have anxiety taking anxiety medication. When I was in grade 11, I went on an daily antidepressant/anxiety medication. I hated it. I would go on and off it. Forget to take it for days or even weeks. I hated taking it daily. It was just horrible. I used to be 100% against medication. That was just me. I can’t really explain it.

So if you don’t want to go on daily anxiety medication, me, out Continue reading

Anxiety Technique: Exercise

I started exercising a few weeks ago and it’s been one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I feel so good physically AND emotionally. It really helps with my anxiety and stress, as well as frustration. I hit the gym whenever I can. There has been a few times these past few weeks where I went because I was struggling with some anxiety/frustration problem. I just thought “screw this. I’m going to the gym.”

It is widely believed that it actually does help us emotionally. I never believed that until I tried it. One day, I just decided I wanted to start exercising to see if it’s true. And it is! There’s something about putting in my earphones and just going at it. I have about a hour long workout playlist and I don’t stop til the music stops. Btw, Miley Cyrus and Demi Lovato are really good workout music.

It actually helps and I strongly recommend it. I’m getting stronger physically and emotionally. Also, It’s a good way to let off some steam. AND It also makes me feel good about myself. I love breaking a sweat. It means I’m doing something right.

“Just because you’re clean, don’t mean you don’t miss it.” – Taylor Swift

I wrote a post back in late October about staying sober. It wasn’t that I had an addiction, in fact, I was far from one. I rarely drank. Maybe once a week or two weeks. But when I did, I drank to get drunk, and when I was drunk, I would have a big breakdown and I couldn’t control my emotions for nothing. So I decided to actively stay sober.

I did have a drink a few times between November and December. But today, Continue reading

Postpartum Depression

Having a baby is supposed to be an amazing experience, with a few tough times here and there.  Unfortunately, many new moms suffer with postpartum depression, or otherwise known as “baby blues”. Postpartum depression affects 8-12% of mothers. Postpartum depression is defined as “depression suffered by a mother following childbirth, typically arising from the combination of hormonal changes, psychological adjustment to motherhood, and fatigue.” Postpartum depression can get so bad to the point where the mother does not want her child, or even worse Continue reading

One Word Challenge: Regret

I don’t regret much. I believe in the saying “Everything happens for a reason.” There’s a reason behind every stupid mistake. There’s a reason why something didn’t work out. There’s a reason. Whether the reason is just to teach a lesson or faith preventing a bad outcome. However, there is just one thing I regret. It happened when I was in high school.

In high school, I got my first crush. It was a quite confusing thing for me. I was Continue reading